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[5thchild]

[ there is no reason for this to be Video, but Kaworu prefers to talk to others face to face ]

Hello. I'm Kaworu Nagisa and I've arrived recently. It's the first time I am allowed to be by myself, and while it sounds refreshing, it is quite confusing. I do not fully understand why I was brought here or what my role in this world should be, but I'm patient and I'm certain I will eventually find out. [ he smiles wider. Kaworu likes smiling a lot ]

I have a question, for those who wish to answer it. Are you happy?

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[momsboy]

Who's Lilin? [ Kaworu lost him there. ] We value our individual existence but people fight and die for a greater future, to ensure others generations can live. So it's not just about personal individuality.

Okay, I 'm starting to see the misunderstanding. My bad then, I thought you were human.

[5thchild]

Lilin are those beings capable of growth and development. Humans, for example. [ he will then add: ] I'm not one, no. Humans call my kind angels.


And a greater future - is that what you are fighting for, then?

[momsboy]

That clear things up a bit. Angels as in...creatures of the lord, with the multiple of eyes, fiery swords, trumpets, and dozens of wings?

I'd sure like to make sure that other people doesn't have to suffer the same shit my team and I went through in the past so...yes. That's why we're called the Guardians of the Galaxy.

[5thchild]

We have inspired such, in my world. [ in a way. Adam, Lilith. All Angels have biblical names too. naturally, they came before humans, therefor humans created religion based on them rather than the other way around.] But not that sort of angels. Though some of us did have wings. [ Kaworu's original body did too ]

The things you went through, do you hate them?

[momsboy]

Maybe not the same but still. I'm talking to an actual angel, that's...woah.

Some. All the bad ones, of course. Others just make me sad or regretful.

[5thchild]

Most would not be inspired. [ most would rather if Kaworu died again ]

regretful. Would you change anything?

[momsboy]

Eh, different people different views. If it helps any, everyone here is pretty open minded.

God yes. I don't know anybody who doesn't have some regrets on their past.

[5thchild]

Do you believe those regrets are not important?

[momsboy]

They are. Regrets and failures teach you more than success...doesn't make them suck any less.

[5thchild]

yes. Pain is not something Lilin wish to feel, it's something you avoid actively, and often something you regret. But regardless of the pain you feel, you still feel happiness, you still feel more than just pain. And therefor, it's worth it, to continue living.

Even with regrets.



What do you regret?

[momsboy]

Pain is something any creature tries to avoid. Unless that's someone's thing, which is cool, but also a whole different kind of pain situation. [ It might involve ropes but Peter keeps that part to himself. ] Awfully philosophical, are you? Not everyone feels happiness, I'm afraid.

Sorry kid, you can't unlock my tragic backstory until we have talked a handful more times. What I regret is between me and my demons.

[5thchild]

Everyone is capable of feeling happiness. of being happy. But to many it's difficult to see that when they have felt great pain in their lives. because of it, they believe pain is all there is, and forget the happy moments they've felt before.

[ and if Peter doesn't want to talk about it, kaworu will not mention it. it's that simple with kaworu ]

Does you dislike philosophical questions?

[momsboy]

Cpable of feeling it? Yes. But not everyone gets the chance and that's the main problem. There's a lot of people living difficult lives across the galaxy. And that's why we need to try to make them better.

Was it like that with your friend? The one you were looking for when you fist arrived?

[ Thanks Kaworu, he appreciates it. ]

Not particularly but those who truly enjoy engaging in this sort of conversations belong to Odin's house. You would probably have a better time talking to them than me.

[5thchild]

Is that your hope? To help everyone to feel happiness?

[ kaworu shakes his head We are not friends. That implies reciprocation. [ and kaworu doeesn't really care if there was any or not. it does not matter. All that matters is shinji ] Shinji-kun has had a very harsh live, therefor he does not think happiness is within his reach. His heart is fragile like glass.

[ he hums at that last comment, though ] I'm enjoying our conversations, though.

[momsboy]

Among other things, no one's completely selfless and I'm certainly not a saint. [ He goes with the 'do no harm, take no shit' philosophy. ] But since I'm stuck here, I'm trying to do the best I can.

Oh, I thought...The way you talked about him made me think of friendship. Or a crush, to be honest.

[ Peter smiles at the reply. ] I don't get that often. You're not bad yourself, angel. Talking about that again...do angels need to eat? sleep? Watch movies, listen to music or have any hobbies...?

[5thchild]

Some would say it's very noble. Why is it so important to you?

[ kaworu tilts his head ] What is a "crush"? [ kaworu was the crushed one, tecnically. crushed to death

that last question doesn't seem all that important to him. He didn't need to eat, but now he does. he didn't need to sleep but now he does. ] I enjoy music. I believe it's one of Lilin's highest achievements.

[momsboy]

To do the right thing, you mean? I..don't know. Te world would be kinder if people were less jackasses. And who doesn't want to be a hero?

Oh that's adorable, you don't have no idea. A crush is when you get feelings for someone, you consider them special and you want to be beside them.

[ That was awful asdjkhk

Peter perks up at that, smiling brightly. ] It is. I love music as well. There are songs added to the bracelet if you want to listen to them, we added them relatively recently with the gods' help, getting the songs out of my memory. It took weeks but now everyone can listen to them or add their own songs.